Happy Monday! I’ve made it back to New York safely after my trip to Atlanta and I just have to say that it was a wonderful time and it made me miss the South quite a bit. The accessibility of being able to see my family and spend time with people I love was unmatched, and I definitely am a little sad that I’m back to rancid, hot ass New York. I love my city, trust and believe, but there are certain things about New York that I’m starting to get over, mainly the fact of being so far away from people that I love. I have built such a community here, and I love my community here in New York for sure but the older I get, the more I’m buzzing with the energy of being close to my parents and my brother and stuff. I have been having weird dreams lately as well, the other night I had a dream that I was being kidnapped and was trying to break out of a car but everything I used to break the window wasn’t working and last night, I had a dream where I was working a job selling groceries at a community grocery store and I got locked in the store by two ghosts who were able to phase through doors and they tried to attack me. So strange. Aside from that, I think my body is trying to tell me something with regard to some of my habits and I’ve been getting a lot of motion sickness lately after drinking, I think it has something to do with the medication I take and I need to keep an eye on that because it’s ruining my lifeeee.
Anyway, here is a picture of me on the day of the wedding and the bride. I’ve known the bride since I was probably about 8 years old, so to be able to officiate the wedding and bring her and her husband together was such a treat. Y’all get to see this picture first, eooowwwww. I got complimented for my style of marrying the two and someone asked me if I was a preacher LOL far from it, honey, but I do my thing at the pulpit!
Today’s card is represented in Hungry Ghost, which represents fear. I find this very interesting especially in light of the dreams that I have been having lately as well as just what types of fears I have been having about certain lifestyle changes that I’m scared to admit I need to enact into my life. I think that I need to stop with some things I’ve been doing to fit in and just cut certain shit out of my life because it’s not doing me any favors and it’s making me more sick than anything else. Key words for this card are terrors, anxiety, and phobias. Are you experiencing any terrors or anxiety or fear of something in your life right now and what do you need to do to address them?
“The Hungry ghost is the reflection of our pain and worst fears. She shows up to remind us of all the times we forgot about love — when life got ugly — for she is the opposite of love. If the Hungry Ghost has floated into your life today, she is asking you to take a look at what it is you are scared of. Will you feed her more with your fear? Or will you set new boundaries as you embark on courageous acts of empowerment on your journey?
If you’re inquiring about a relationship or situation, drawing this card can signify an important test — one that will challenge your spirit. Defeating the Hungry Ghost means loving yourself more than the reflection of the pain or wound that appears when you face her. Proceed fearlessly but be prepared to meet her head on. Her reality is only as big as you let it be.”
There are a few things I feel like I need to unpack in therapy this morning because this is speaking to me in a few ways. I have fears of moving, fears of stopping living my lifestyle mainly because it’s not working for where I want to see myself in the next few years, and fears of just being successful underneath a different lens. I’m trying my best to overcome those fears, or at least move them out the way so that way I can do what I’m meant to do before it’s too late. How are you taking a look at what you’re scared of today and making it your bitch? Or doing something to address the fear at its core and do something about it? What is one thing that you can commit to today to address a fear that you have in your life?
Sit with that and think about what’s been scaring you and what you can do to fix it. Today, for me, talking about it is going to be a major key that I need to come to terms with and the next step is doing something about it…
I’m tired of my being stuck because of something scaring me through my elevation. The only thing I can do right now is try and overcome those things that bring fear out of me because it’ll be for my benefit in the long run.
Ask yourself, “What scares me? And how can I run towards it instead of away from it today?”
I love you. Thanks for reading. Have a marvelous Monday.
So happy you had a fabulous weekend. Spent the long weekend at the beach and thought about so much. My fear is fearing what will happen if i set boundaries. Will people be upset? Will i be seen as selfish…and the answer is- i have to set boundaries and be happy with my decisions. If others don’t like it- too bad. Enough is enough. Thank you always for keeping it real. Don’t fear your greatness and don’t fear if what you contribute helps- ay papi- it does. Besitos amor. ❤️