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6/4/24
Is it just me or was yesterday a heavy day? Like, starting the week off in that energy was not what I was expecting at all. I found myself just being irritable all day for various reasons, and was trying to do my best to find my chill state but it was such a struggle. I don’t know if it’s because the New Moon in Gemini is coming up or I heard that the moon was void of course (don’t know what that means but people talk about it so!) so maybe all of those powers combined had people feeling on the fritz. I’m still feeling a little bit of the annoyance I think because my soul feels a little exhausted and it’s because of the situation I find myself in with some personal things, such as finances and relationships.
Yesterday, I did have a conversation with my therapist about dating and relationships and it made me realize that I do want companionship in a deeper sense than what I’ve had. I don’t want to spill all my tea, but I know there was a point where I was talking about companionship in this blog and that has been dead to the bed for months now, so I’ve just been thugging it out single for some time. I’ve actually been single for about 5 years, and that’s a long time to be doing things by yourself. You get accustomed to not having to worry about other people and only focus on yourself and while I can gel with that, it still is hard to see other people in my life finding their person or someone that they like and can spend time with that pours into them. Where is someone to pour into me in that way? Where can I pick one up? But then I also know the dating pool has piss in it so it right now, so it’s not like there are always the greatest of options out there…but maybe I like my pool with a little pee in it. IDK IDK. I’m definitely feeling the pangs of being alone going into the summer and I want a little summer romance or something and I know that means I have to get out of my house and try, but………..yeah, that’s still a huge, scary thing for me to do. Put myself in a position to date or meet a person because everything in my life isn’t set up the way I would like for me to be able to connect with someone in that way. Like, I still have issues I’m trying to sort out for myself and I don’t know if I feel comfortable bringing someone else into them, but I know that I just saw a tweet that said something along the lines of “a crush is when you don’t have a lot of information on someone and love is when you manage to appreciate and stick around with a person no matter what information you find out” and I’m trying to ease on down the love road. Not too soon, but eventually. My biggest fear in life is dying alone, without having a romantic partner to be a part of my life. I really want that, and something healthy to be able to reflect upon as I get older.
Whew, that was a left turn that I wasn’t expecting to write about this morning, but I had to get that up off my chest. Y’all know I normally don’t get super into my own life on that deep of a level, but it just needed to flow from my heart. I feel like there’s more that I have to say, but we’ll see where I decide to put that energy or if I have a chance to expel it in some way. There’s a part of me that wants to cry and just purge all that energy out today or this week, but it’s been hard to get to that point honestly. Who knows what today has in store, though. I have a feeling this New Moon is going to come through and wipe some things out for me. At least, I need to prepare myself for it to do such and set some true intentions that it will do just that.
Today, I’m going to pull from my Animal Spirit deck. It called out to me to work from, so let’s see what messages it has today.
Today, we have the Unicorn. Is Spirit calling me, you, us unicorns today? That’s reassuring as fuck lmfao. I guess the way I interpret this on the onset is that my energetic imprint is unique and so is yours. So don’t feel guilty for being a unicorn or operating as such, because that’s what makes you…well, you. I find myself trying to do things at times that make me fit in instead of stand out, which is what we’re all supposed to be doing and the Unicorn must be showing up here to tell us today to be our unique selves and celebrate that oneness that we have with ourselves in the fullest of capacities.
[got distracted by work, let me get back on my Zoom]
Unicorn, to me, speaks to the parts of ourselves that deserve to be seen. Let’s see what the text has to say.
From this deck, the Unicorn has to do with the 6th chakra, which is the third eye. I find it interesting that we started talking a little bit about chakras and mudras yesterday, and here we are today being told to plug into our third eye chakra today. Release your inhibitions and plug into your intuition!
“It’s no surprise the subtle essence of the Unicorn card resides at the third eye, the exact place from which the Unicorn’s horn extends. This center is called the Ajna chakra, or “command center”. The ancient yogis believed it to be responsible for our intellect, intuition, and deepest wisdom. Some say our two eyes see the past and present, while this third eye peers into the future.”
The Unicorn asks us to reconnect to our higher wisdom or divinity.
“It’s difficult to see, hear, or think of a Unicorn without immediately questioning if it’s real. Did they ever exist? Perhaps long, long ago? The mind answers, “maybe…” or “it could be…” or “no way.” This very contemplation explains our relationship with divinity, and encapsulates our wavering belief in the Unicorn. We wonder what divinity is. We wonder where our intuition comes from and if we can really trust it. We think about a higher power and our mind hesitates between yes, no, and maybe. Is it male or female? Does it have a name? Is it just a feeling? The Unicorn card appears and ‘wakes us up’ to curiosity about the higher self and the divine. It is a card of questioning, exploring, and contemplating the inexplicable. The mind’s eye knows there is something beyond our day-to-day lives, a deeper dimension to our experiences. The mind’s eye reaches and reaches and reaches out to grasp something more. You are the Unicorn, and you have begun your quest for the answers.”
What answers are you looking for today? How are you questioning the higher self and the divine today? Or how are you allowing your higher self and the divine to take the reigns? This makes me think about my own situation and there’s this feeling of being panicky in the moment because things are NOT OKAY fully for me right now, but I have this feeling that things WILL BE okay in the long run. And that’s a level of faith and trust that I just have to have, but why do I feel that way? I think it’s mainly because I have to have this unwavering belief that everything is going to work out in the end because it has worked out before, even when I least expected it. I pass that onto you today as well; knowing that things are going to work out for the highest good as long as you stay connected to the divinity within you. If you aren’t feeling like that just yet, begin to start searching for the answers that will give you peace along the journey.
The definition of ‘divine’ is of, from, or like God, and this makes me want to pass on the fact that we all have these components of ourselves that are of, from, or like God. Not to get religious or anything, but it makes me think of how we have this higher version of selves that we’re always doing our best to stay connected to and tap into and I believe this is what the energy of the day is calling for: for us to stay connected to that component of ourselves and also see that in everyone else as we traverse throughout our days.
Another definition for divine is excellent, and delightful. How are you choosing to connect to your excellence and the essence of delightfulness on today? The Unicorn is here to remind you that you’re deserving of excellence and feeling delightful in your essence as you get answers to the questions you’ve been looking for. How do you operate from this space of sacrosanctity?
Today feels like a day of going with your intuition as a whole and allowing yourself to be curious. We reject curiosity at times because it ‘wastes time’ or ‘makes us look silly’ but that’s the breath of life that we should be having fun with in this season is what I’m getting from this card. The Unicorn is telling us to have fun, to question and ponder, and to experience this day to its fullest.
Now, work has started to get a little hefty so let me close this up and send it on out. I’ve been working on this post for over an hour so I figure I should go ahead and send and not make it that much longer. I hope ya’ll enjoyed my far cry haha.
Don’t forget I still have offerings for readings ($50 option or a $15 option) that you can take advantage of all June. Shoot me an e-mail (gangstagurry@gmail.com) if this piques your interest.
Love you guys, always. Thank you for your continued support and for reading this!
U are unique and lovable just like the unicorn. And u will know when it is the right time for love or when the right situation will present itself. I think it pops up when we go with the flow and least expect it. TQM. Besitos. 😘❤️