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Tarot Meditation for 12/2

Happy Saturday. Where are you checking in from?
This morning, I’m moving a bit slower than I normally do because I wanted to make sure that I took care of me first and foremost. I’ve been recognizing how much I have been moving on other folx’s time and I needed to make this morning a bit more personal for the self, compared to the other mornings this week. Yesterday wasn’t a bad day - the rain and the now fog have me feeling some sort of way and I think that’s what I’m feeling this morning: a tinge of heaviness. I definitely woke up feeling like I wanted to cry, did just that and went back to sleep for a little while before getting myself back up to write this. I think the weather, in addition to the things that were causing me anxiety yesterday/this week, have me feeling a way but it’s not something that I can get out of.

I read something yesterday about being an oversharer and I think that I’m not oversharing in my blog, but I do wonder sometimes and worry whether or not I let people into my world a little too much. Like, I overthink whether or not I should delete this blog and just fall into obscurity but I know that’s just me running away from my gifts of writing and from the gift of sharing myself with others…which is something that I have habitually run away from growing up especially as a teenager because I’ve always been concerned people couldn’t handle all of me, so I had to compartmentalize what it is that I show and how I show it to others. And I know that’s not fair to me or to anyone else.

Another thing I’ve been spiraling about lately is the quality of my friendships and how since I’ve been out in the streets again, am I fucking up my friendships or not making them as loving as they could be because I have a blindspot right now? More on that at 8, I suppose? I just hope that if I had people upset with me or concerned about me, they would tell me. I could just be making that up, but I could also be bringing something up that I’m sensing and maybe I just need to investigate a little more.

Now, deck wise, I think I’m going to go to our Earth Warrior Oracle because I always love the message that comes from these in readings…

Aiyana Vision, the Way of the Divine Feminine Revealed, is our card of the day.

Aiyana Vision is the blossoming awareness of your life purpose and true inner passion. You are being lovingly pushed to admit to your authentic and most passionate soul yearnings, becoming bold with honesty. What means so much to you that you are willing to give up all that you have held on to out of fear so that it may be? What matters enough to you that you would symbolically die and be reborn — with all the endings and uncertainty such growth entails — so that your dream can become real? Don’t turn away from your yearning out of fear, practicality or any other excuse to replace faith with doubt. Your truth acknowledged will bring you peace, even if admitting it also means facing the personal transformation required to bring that truth to life in your world. When it is the truth, it is healing. Embrace it.

This is pointing to something that you have held onto for a really long time because you’re scared of letting go…what is that thing that you are scared of that growth entails BUT you know that once you release this, you’re going to have an open space in your life for the new? Something has to die and be reborn and that something is you right now…what is it that brings you peace or you know is going to bring you peace but you’re so scared to admit it because you prefer to live in hell? Is it a person or a place or a thing? Maybe the ask today is for you to sit and ask the Universe to cut ties with anything that does not honor your divine feminine way.

I think this is pointing to a sense of your dreams coming real, and there’s something big that you’ve been sitting on or trying to prepare for the new year, and you need to make space for what this thing is. “You are due for a revelation, an awakening into deeper recognition and understanding of your true spiritual passion and sacred life purpose — and all that is entailed in manifesting it in loving co-creation with the Universe.” You know that the Universe is going to help you make it real so sit down and figure out what that is. I see some of us struggling to sit down and make sense of what that actually is, and this could be the nudge this weekend to sit and get clear on what works, what doesn’t, what you want to keep in your life and what you don’t and start eliminating as you get ready for 2024. We literally only have 29 days before this shit is closed up, Peggy.

I think this is also a sign for someone out there to know that you are in a space of clarity and firing on all cylinders so use that clarity to your advantage.

There is a part of me that wants to do an IG live or record something but doesn’t want to do the set up that goes along with it and I am looking ROUGH right now without a haircut but…maybe my energy will shift in the next hour or so before I have to head out to go see about sos. So maybe we’ll get an IG live for the week today or maybe tomorrow since today IS Saturday and it’s all about banishing the bullshit…especially after a week like this week? We can use all the banishing we can get.

Have a lovely Saturday!